[She nods, though it's weaker, measuring out another length of twine.]
I've always had to do it alone, Chijin.
I love the people of Cefiro. But they can't help the Pillar. If I could change that... If my prayers for that would not bring the world to ruin, then I think that the burden might be easier.
But the Pillar cannot care for anything but Cefiro. It's... why I had to kill Emeraude. Because she fell in love, and her heart strayed, enough that her people suffered.
I can't repeat that. I don't... I don't want to be alone, but... [That's just how it had to be, right? No matter how hard she focuses... that's just always how it had been. Just herself.
Right?]
I don't want to fall into sorrow, and doom the world I've come to love. So... I can't go back with a heart that only feels anger or loneliness or doubt.
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I've always had to do it alone, Chijin.
I love the people of Cefiro. But they can't help the Pillar. If I could change that... If my prayers for that would not bring the world to ruin, then I think that the burden might be easier.
But the Pillar cannot care for anything but Cefiro. It's... why I had to kill Emeraude. Because she fell in love, and her heart strayed, enough that her people suffered.
I can't repeat that. I don't... I don't want to be alone, but... [That's just how it had to be, right? No matter how hard she focuses... that's just always how it had been. Just herself.
Right?]
I don't want to fall into sorrow, and doom the world I've come to love. So... I can't go back with a heart that only feels anger or loneliness or doubt.