NO KIDDING. anyway. xie lian has been pretty absent since the trial ended - lost in his own thoughts, angry, and anything but helpful to others, he's taken back to one of the couches in the lobby of the inn with a cup of tea and his own thoughts.
when hikaru approaches him, he glances upwards from under his lashes where he's sitting, notes her puffy, red eyes, and thinks back to how she was sitting with kano up to the last moment, yesterday. ]
[She carefully lowers herself to a seat nearby, her glass held between both hands.]
...
If you make a really big mistake... one that you thought was good, but... but wasn't, in the end, that just ended up hurting someone really, really badly...
What... do you do, when you keep making that kind of mistake?
his heart breaks for her; it's clear on his face, and he turns his body towards hikaru's a little more. he can't exactly reach out for a hug, but if she wants one, it's there. ] ...You were trying to help. [ not a question, just a realization. ]
How was it supposed to make him think differently..?
Shuuya-kun hates himself so much, Chijin... everything he does, I think, is because he just wants everyone to... to believe he's as useless as he thinks he is. He doesn't want to be mean, but he doesn't have a choice in his mind, and he says and does things that make him look so much worse...
I... knew if I used my gem, it would force anyone to be kind. For a whole day. And when I saw all the evidence, and saw him acting horribly to the people around him, I...
...
I thought it would help... I thought it would make it easier for him to... to tell the truth...
[And, unfortunately... it did the exact opposite, and that much shows on her face as she trails off, jaw clenching.]
[ it sure did do the exact opposite, wow. xie lian's quiet for a moment as he reflects on kano's actions during the trial, his behaviors - even the way he had acted before that.
he bites his lip, for a moment, looking deeply sorrowful, as he tries to decide what to say. ]
...Did you use it on him before the trial began, or during it?
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NO KIDDING. anyway. xie lian has been pretty absent since the trial ended - lost in his own thoughts, angry, and anything but helpful to others, he's taken back to one of the couches in the lobby of the inn with a cup of tea and his own thoughts.
when hikaru approaches him, he glances upwards from under his lashes where he's sitting, notes her puffy, red eyes, and thinks back to how she was sitting with kano up to the last moment, yesterday. ]
...What is it, Miss Hikaru?
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...
If you make a really big mistake... one that you thought was good, but... but wasn't, in the end, that just ended up hurting someone really, really badly...
What... do you do, when you keep making that kind of mistake?
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slowly: ] ...That...depends, Hikaru, on what kind of mistake it is.
[ ..... ] What happened?
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[Her grip tightens.]
Something that made him think differently than he usually does.
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The gem we received this week...?
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Haha. :(]
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his heart breaks for her; it's clear on his face, and he turns his body towards hikaru's a little more. he can't exactly reach out for a hug, but if she wants one, it's there. ] ...You were trying to help. [ not a question, just a realization. ]
How was it supposed to make him think differently..?
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Shuuya-kun hates himself so much, Chijin... everything he does, I think, is because he just wants everyone to... to believe he's as useless as he thinks he is. He doesn't want to be mean, but he doesn't have a choice in his mind, and he says and does things that make him look so much worse...
I... knew if I used my gem, it would force anyone to be kind. For a whole day. And when I saw all the evidence, and saw him acting horribly to the people around him, I...
...
I thought it would help... I thought it would make it easier for him to... to tell the truth...
[And, unfortunately... it did the exact opposite, and that much shows on her face as she trails off, jaw clenching.]
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he bites his lip, for a moment, looking deeply sorrowful, as he tries to decide what to say. ]
...Did you use it on him before the trial began, or during it?
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