Hey, Hikaru. Listen to me: even if your actions played a part in it, that's what they were. A part. You're not wholly responsible, and the burden is not wholly yours.
What happened last week was a culmination of several things going horribly wrong. If you're to blame for using that gemstone on him, then I'm to blame for trying to talk to him. And Kano himself is to blame for being shifty in the first place. And everyone who voted for him is to blame for not realizing what was going on.
I won't say you're wrong to feel guilty, but don't let that guilt consume you, yeah?
That aching inside her just twists further, something that Shiro will definitely feel loud and clear for how close they are to one another.]
I don't... know how to do that, Shiro-san.
The last time I did something this horrible, trying to do good... all I could ever think about was doing whatever I could to help the people that were hurt by my mistakes, even when I had no control over it. I still dream about it.
You take things day by day, one step at a time. It'll hurt a lot at first, it always does. But as time passes and you grow and learn from everything that's happened, it'll hurt less. It might never go away entirely, but it won't trouble your waking thoughts all day.
But if you focus on one step forward at a time, it gets easier.
I think it's true of most gods too, but anyone who is truly sorry for their actions can be forgiven. As long as you feel remorse and try to make amends, nothing is unforgivable.
Unfortunately, forgiveness from others doesn't matter much if you don't forgive yourself first. That's a personal journey those people would have to make.
that, at least, resonates enough that she can't respond to it, understanding coming with another strong pang of guilt. She shrinks back into her seat, nodding as she presses her hands into tighter fists against her knees.]
[He lets the quiet sit between them for a moment, giving Hikaru some time to think. But he can't stay quiet forever, so eventually he speaks up in a gentle voice:]
You need to forgive yourself, Hikaru. Not just for Kano, but for the other things too.
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What happened last week was a culmination of several things going horribly wrong. If you're to blame for using that gemstone on him, then I'm to blame for trying to talk to him. And Kano himself is to blame for being shifty in the first place. And everyone who voted for him is to blame for not realizing what was going on.
I won't say you're wrong to feel guilty, but don't let that guilt consume you, yeah?
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That aching inside her just twists further, something that Shiro will definitely feel loud and clear for how close they are to one another.]
I don't... know how to do that, Shiro-san.
The last time I did something this horrible, trying to do good... all I could ever think about was doing whatever I could to help the people that were hurt by my mistakes, even when I had no control over it. I still dream about it.
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But if you focus on one step forward at a time, it gets easier.
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Does... your god forgive people like me, Shiro-san?
Would they forgive people like Shuuya-kun?
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[haha.... shuuya :(]
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that, at least, resonates enough that she can't respond to it, understanding coming with another strong pang of guilt. She shrinks back into her seat, nodding as she presses her hands into tighter fists against her knees.]
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You need to forgive yourself, Hikaru. Not just for Kano, but for the other things too.