A girl with no name, with very little left to define her from where she had come before, with feelings that seemed to have no purpose, that sprouted from what felt like a confusing, uncomprehensible sea of black.
...
But, no...
No, that wasn't right, was it?]
I'm...
[...
Who was she, then?]
...
Hua-chan... I don't know how... how right that is.
Who I am... who I... I was... that's... I can't see that anymore, Hua-chan. No matter how hard I look, I think... she's disappearing.
My heart feels the same. My heart... still hurts. It hurts for everybody that I've met here just like I remember it hurting before. M-my heart is what's scared for what will happen, if I can't remember.
But I...
[She tenses with a firm exhale.]
I remember you. And I remember Chijin... and Claude, and Raven, and Hajime-chan, Shuuya-kun, Shigeo-kun, Hansa-san, Chiron-sensei... I-I remember the people I love here... I know what my heart wants here...
I-I don't... I don't want to lose everything, Hua-chan, but... [She clings a little harder.] I still want to live. I want to live for the people I love, and... even if I don't know what to do, or I don't remember anything but right now...
I... I want to live... not for what I'm losing, but... for whoever I am. And for... for people like you.
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A girl with no name, with very little left to define her from where she had come before, with feelings that seemed to have no purpose, that sprouted from what felt like a confusing, uncomprehensible sea of black.
...
But, no...
No, that wasn't right, was it?]
I'm...
[...
Who was she, then?]
...
Hua-chan... I don't know how... how right that is.
Who I am... who I... I was... that's... I can't see that anymore, Hua-chan. No matter how hard I look, I think... she's disappearing.
My heart feels the same. My heart... still hurts. It hurts for everybody that I've met here just like I remember it hurting before. M-my heart is what's scared for what will happen, if I can't remember.
But I...
[She tenses with a firm exhale.]
I remember you. And I remember Chijin... and Claude, and Raven, and Hajime-chan, Shuuya-kun, Shigeo-kun, Hansa-san, Chiron-sensei... I-I remember the people I love here... I know what my heart wants here...
I-I don't... I don't want to lose everything, Hua-chan, but... [She clings a little harder.] I still want to live. I want to live for the people I love, and... even if I don't know what to do, or I don't remember anything but right now...
I... I want to live... not for what I'm losing, but... for whoever I am. And for... for people like you.