[ There's a moment, where he's quiet, in response to the question. Because it wasn't. It wasn't hard at all, because that's the kind of person that he's always been. ]
It wasn't something I took pleasure in doing, but I don't hold remorse for it. I promised Swan that it would be taken care of, and that I would come back, no matter what.
[ Still, a beat - and then he presses a kiss to the top of her head, lingering there with a fierce relief and gentle affection. This, this is the person he's become. ]
... it was harder, losing you. But that's no fault of yours, Hikaru - and that you chose to face that, I'm proud of you for the choice, regardless. You were brave.
[The kiss fills her with warmth, and her grip on him relaxes just a little.]
I didn't mean to leave any of you behind. But... Nii-chan, he told me how he felt when he had splintered, and I didn't want anyone else to have to kill, or to be killed, just because of me...
I fought with dignity, Hua-chan. I... just hope someone, even one person, was able to forgive who took me away.
[ With a big, deep breath, that he might not truly need - there's been no need to test it - Hua Cheng closes his eye and puts his chin on her head. ]
I'll try not to be angry with them. They gave you the respect that you deserved, in the end, and if you faced it with dignity... then I can't take that from you.
Being so close to the finish line, being together again, we can't ruin that. [ Although, a very large part of him will remain looming in the background, displeased and vengeful. ]
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I didn't mean to worry you all so much. Alyssa-chan... to do what you were told was hard enough for you, wasn't it? And I...
[No. No, she cuts herself off with a firm swallow, an exhale through the nose.]
It... it hurt so much, to see you and Chijin suffering. All I wanted was to be back with you...
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It wasn't something I took pleasure in doing, but I don't hold remorse for it. I promised Swan that it would be taken care of, and that I would come back, no matter what.
[ Still, a beat - and then he presses a kiss to the top of her head, lingering there with a fierce relief and gentle affection. This, this is the person he's become. ]
... it was harder, losing you. But that's no fault of yours, Hikaru - and that you chose to face that, I'm proud of you for the choice, regardless. You were brave.
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I didn't mean to leave any of you behind. But... Nii-chan, he told me how he felt when he had splintered, and I didn't want anyone else to have to kill, or to be killed, just because of me...
I fought with dignity, Hua-chan. I... just hope someone, even one person, was able to forgive who took me away.
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I'll try not to be angry with them. They gave you the respect that you deserved, in the end, and if you faced it with dignity... then I can't take that from you.
Being so close to the finish line, being together again, we can't ruin that. [ Although, a very large part of him will remain looming in the background, displeased and vengeful. ]