...Hikaru. [ there's a somber seriousness to his voice, as he looks down at her. ] ...I didn't lie to you and say that I was fine, because this is not the first time this has happened to me.
I have "died" like this in many ways, over the years.
That doesn't matter. [An almost immediate retort, the surprise of his answer barely registering.]
Whether it's your first life or your thousandth, or whether you're a person or a god... shouldn't the people who love you still be able to help you honestly, no matter what?
xie lian blinks at the immediateness of it - well, at least her worry is keeping her upright...? -- and then ducks his head, reaching up to scratch his cheek, quietly humbled.
how does he tell this sweet girl he hasn't had someone who loved him in hundreds of years? ]
...Of course; in that you're correct. [ he will acquiesce! but. ] Nevertheless, it is a pain that is bearable - if anything, I am glad it was myself in this situation. [ and not someone else. someone like mob, or usagi.
...someone like ochako, who he worries for every moment that passes. ]
for a brief, imperceptible moment, his expression shifts, and xie lian looks away as he delivers the information. perhaps something of this bothered him far, far more than he ever could have said. ]
...I lost all control of my consciousness, as did Won. We immediately began to attack the other two, with the intent to kill them, and all of us were instructed to "defeat the monsters".
[ and the monsters, in this case, were xie lian and soo-won. ]
[ there's a weight to his words when he says them, a seriousness, unflinching from the truth of it all. ] We attacked them.
[ xie lian is inherently an extremely kind person - despite being a fighter, and even a martial god, he's always tried not to harm someone whenever possible. he is not, and never has been, violent... and at the worst moment in his life, when he did act in ways unbecoming of his normal character, xie lian was at least aware of it.
but this. there was barely anything he could do. no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't make it stop.
i told you, did i not? you cannot protect anything. you never will.
he's quiet for a moment. ] ...I was able to regain my consciousness for a brief few seconds during, and commanded Ruoye to help Miss Ochako. She and Archer were able to successfully incapacitate us.
[ that's the simplest way to summarize it, without getting too into the gory detail of it all. ]
[ it's around his arm like always! behaving itself.
"scared"... ]
Was I scared that I could have done it, you mean? [ xie lian pauses, for a moment. hikaru had asked for his honesty; his brows knit together. ]
...I was terrified. [ simply enough. ] I have trained in combat as long as I have been alive, Hikaru. I could have easily hurt either of them far worse than what was done - I am beyond glad that Archer was the one there.
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the truth, huh... ]
...Hikaru. [ there's a somber seriousness to his voice, as he looks down at her. ] ...I didn't lie to you and say that I was fine, because this is not the first time this has happened to me.
I have "died" like this in many ways, over the years.
[ "i've had worse", he said.
he has. ]
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Whether it's your first life or your thousandth, or whether you're a person or a god... shouldn't the people who love you still be able to help you honestly, no matter what?
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xie lian blinks at the immediateness of it - well, at least her worry is keeping her upright...? -- and then ducks his head, reaching up to scratch his cheek, quietly humbled.
how does he tell this sweet girl he hasn't had someone who loved him in hundreds of years? ]
...Of course; in that you're correct. [ he will acquiesce! but. ] Nevertheless, it is a pain that is bearable - if anything, I am glad it was myself in this situation. [ and not someone else. someone like mob, or usagi.
...someone like ochako, who he worries for every moment that passes. ]
I really will be alright.
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[She folds her arms across her chest, dragging her knees close.]
Okay...
...What kind of side effects? Just... being possessed by a ghost...? [That doesn't sound very drastic.]
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haha.
for a brief, imperceptible moment, his expression shifts, and xie lian looks away as he delivers the information. perhaps something of this bothered him far, far more than he ever could have said. ]
...I lost all control of my consciousness, as did Won. We immediately began to attack the other two, with the intent to kill them, and all of us were instructed to "defeat the monsters".
[ and the monsters, in this case, were xie lian and soo-won. ]
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You were the monsters, weren't you...? Ochako-chan and Sensei, they already defeated them by then, right? Did... it not count?
[This sounds horrible, but she doesn't sound horribly panicked by any of this... only concerned and, understandably, confused.]
If you didn't have any control, then... What happened? What did you do?
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[ xie lian is inherently an extremely kind person - despite being a fighter, and even a martial god, he's always tried not to harm someone whenever possible. he is not, and never has been, violent... and at the worst moment in his life, when he did act in ways unbecoming of his normal character, xie lian was at least aware of it.
but this. there was barely anything he could do. no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't make it stop.
i told you, did i not? you cannot protect anything. you never will.
he's quiet for a moment. ] ...I was able to regain my consciousness for a brief few seconds during, and commanded Ruoye to help Miss Ochako. She and Archer were able to successfully incapacitate us.
[ that's the simplest way to summarize it, without getting too into the gory detail of it all. ]
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[Ruoye had helped, then... but where... is the little bugger, anyway?
...
Her voice stays quiet, letting the details settle.]
...Were you scared?
I... I know Sensei knows how to fight, but... Ochako-chan is just a little older than me, isn't she...?
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"scared"... ]
Was I scared that I could have done it, you mean? [ xie lian pauses, for a moment. hikaru had asked for his honesty; his brows knit together. ]
...I was terrified. [ simply enough. ] I have trained in combat as long as I have been alive, Hikaru. I could have easily hurt either of them far worse than what was done - I am beyond glad that Archer was the one there.