[ xie lian stays quiet as he listens to her prayer, his heart heavy and full in his chest. he considers everything he knows of this place, of the people within it, of the way things just seem to fall apart at the seams. of san lang's anger, at yoshizawa's death, so deep and painful that he's been thinking about it since. of finding shiro's body, tucked among the flowers. of everything he can still remember in the weeks prior.
even one person. even if it's just one.
xie lian bows his head, too. ]
...It is a noble wish to have. [ he says, quietly, his voice affected. ] To help even one person... to save even one person... that is what I have always hoped to do. It is a reason to move forward.
...I will do everything in my power to try and grant that wish. I am not...
..."His Highness who Pleased the Gods" fell, and... a god of misfortune rose in his place. Titles given are titles given, and sometimes earned, but I... I will do my best, not as Taizi Dianxia - but as Xie Lian. As Chijin. I will do everything in my power to make this prayer come true.
[ and secretly he prays - he prays to no one, but he prays - that his misfortune will not infect hikaru, too. ]
[She hears, but it doesn't stick, and the clouded aura over her eyes only worsens. There's a stumbling of her words, Hikaru taking in a slow breath... before her hand moves to rub at her eyes, glassy despite her expression. ]
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I can't remember your name... Dianxia-sama...
[ ... he wishes he could hug her. xie lian just feels loss, like a piece of his heart crumbling into pieces. ]
That's okay, meimei. [ he says, gentle, soothing, reaching for the right words. he takes every single feeling of sorrow and despair and - hopelessness, he feels, watching hikaru suffer--and pushes it away.
you will never protect anyone, xian le.
he has to be strong for her. terrified, brave hikaru, her wild heart restrained. ] It is only temporary. Isn't it? You will remember. I know you will.
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even one person. even if it's just one.
xie lian bows his head, too. ]
...It is a noble wish to have. [ he says, quietly, his voice affected. ] To help even one person... to save even one person... that is what I have always hoped to do. It is a reason to move forward.
...I will do everything in my power to try and grant that wish. I am not...
..."His Highness who Pleased the Gods" fell, and... a god of misfortune rose in his place. Titles given are titles given, and sometimes earned, but I... I will do my best, not as Taizi Dianxia - but as Xie Lian. As Chijin. I will do everything in my power to make this prayer come true.
[ and secretly he prays - he prays to no one, but he prays - that his misfortune will not infect hikaru, too. ]
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[She hears, but it doesn't stick, and the clouded aura over her eyes only worsens. There's a stumbling of her words, Hikaru taking in a slow breath... before her hand moves to rub at her eyes, glassy despite her expression. ]
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I can't remember your name... Dianxia-sama...
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That's okay, meimei. [ he says, gentle, soothing, reaching for the right words. he takes every single feeling of sorrow and despair and - hopelessness, he feels, watching hikaru suffer--and pushes it away.
you will never protect anyone, xian le.
he has to be strong for her. terrified, brave hikaru, her wild heart restrained. ] It is only temporary. Isn't it? You will remember. I know you will.
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I... when I wake up tomorrow, I...
[She'll... she'll re...
...
What... will she do?
...
Like sand slipping through her fingers, a rope fraying apart the longer its pulled.
...
She lets out another deep breath, before placing the flower in front of her.]
I'll wake up tomorrow, Dianxia. I'll wake up... and I'll find you.