[She holds her composure as best as she can until the bitter end, tears rolling down her face as she grips weakly againt his gentle hold.]
Please.... please, please don't let me forget... I... I had to kill a princess, and the man she loved, with my own hands... All they wanted was to just be together, and be able to love, in a world that wouldn't let them... and now...
[She shakes her head, over and over.]
I can't forget. I can't let something like that ever happen again. I don't want to fight without knowing. I don't want someone to have to suffer when they only want to be with a loved one...
I can't forget...
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[ xie lian holds her hand tight, lets her grip on as much as she feels like she needs, but after she trails off, he lifts his hand to gently wipe away some of the tears at on her cheeks with his long sleeve.
how awful, for her to have experienced such a thing. how cruel the world is - xie lian has always wished it wasn't, but he has been so, so aware of its nature for far too long.
he takes the duty of holding this memory with all of the somber seriousness it requires, and feels i don't want someone to have to suffer when they only want to be with a loved one deep, deep in his core. it reminds him of a little ghost fire, all those years ago. ]
If you forget, I will remember. I will find ways to remind you, even if the event disappears from your mind, Miss Hikaru, I swear it.
[She doesn't push him away, even as he wiped at her face, even as she pulls her composure back as desperately as she can with a shaking breath.]
Even if everything else disappears...
To... to forget that I led a world to suffer because I was ignorant... and to forget that I... I can only do anything that I can, cause of the people I love who I have by my side...
...I don't... want to go back to how I thought before. I don't want to be a hero, Chijin-san, if I don't remember what it means anymore.
[ xie lian considers, for a moment, what it means to be a hero, to him. he considers his own life. he considers the moment when he lost sight of himself, a long, long time ago.
and he nods, giving her hand a squeeze. ] ...Then, we won't forget, Miss Hikaru. Let us engrave such a memory on our souls, so it can never be taken away, even if the context disappears for a while.
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[She holds her composure as best as she can until the bitter end, tears rolling down her face as she grips weakly againt his gentle hold.]
Please.... please, please don't let me forget... I... I had to kill a princess, and the man she loved, with my own hands... All they wanted was to just be together, and be able to love, in a world that wouldn't let them... and now...
[She shakes her head, over and over.]
I can't forget. I can't let something like that ever happen again. I don't want to fight without knowing. I don't want someone to have to suffer when they only want to be with a loved one...
I can't forget...
i cannot believe dreamwidth cucked you this hard i am so sorry
how awful, for her to have experienced such a thing. how cruel the world is - xie lian has always wished it wasn't, but he has been so, so aware of its nature for far too long.
he takes the duty of holding this memory with all of the somber seriousness it requires, and feels i don't want someone to have to suffer when they only want to be with a loved one deep, deep in his core. it reminds him of a little ghost fire, all those years ago. ]
If you forget, I will remember. I will find ways to remind you, even if the event disappears from your mind, Miss Hikaru, I swear it.
18 DAYS LATER IM IN SO MUCH PAIN
Even if everything else disappears...
To... to forget that I led a world to suffer because I was ignorant... and to forget that I... I can only do anything that I can, cause of the people I love who I have by my side...
...I don't... want to go back to how I thought before. I don't want to be a hero, Chijin-san, if I don't remember what it means anymore.
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and he nods, giving her hand a squeeze. ] ...Then, we won't forget, Miss Hikaru. Let us engrave such a memory on our souls, so it can never be taken away, even if the context disappears for a while.