[ah, soo-won will just manage a bit of an amused smile at that]
Mm, I was.
She's much stronger than most people anticipate - but even she was shaken up. Even still, I'm sure she'll be alright with time and some kindness from others.
Yeah. I'm really worried about her, and I... didn't want to bother her, with everything that happened today. But you can see she's strong inside when you talk to her, you know?
...
Soo-won-san, I found out what happened at the vote. Why her name was chosen.
When I voted for myself... something happened. The Realm didn't know what to do with it, because I made that choice when I knew I was innocent. It... it got confused.
Then as long as you bring that forward, you won't hurt her at all.
[he offers up a smile]
That girl is very capable, and very fair. You don't have to worry about harming her so long as you didn't actually intend to injure her. She'll be able to handle it.
I'm... going to tell a few others, as well. I know that a few people have already lost memories, but I don't want this to be forgotten if we have to watch someone else die.
And... [She hesitates.]
...What happened today, with Virid? That wasn't because of the vote. And she and I and our teams, none of us will be in danger.
I don't know. All my leader told me was that it... it wasn't my fault for who got chosen for what happened. That's all I know.
[Though she sounds like that's not something she entirely believes.]
If someone really, really wants their memories back, then... killing someone else is the quickest way to do that. But it hurts so many people, and we won't have as many here to help make things right...
My leader said there should be another way, Won-san. A slower way, but... we shouldn't have to try these kinds of things just because we're frightened.
We've all been placed in a difficult situation to begin with, where our memories have been held hostage and for those who want them more fiercely than others, they've been given a way to regain them - but at the expense of others.
Their friendly competition has become anything but.
Haku-san, my oldest brother told me that a person has to make up their mind in this world. That I have to stick to my decisions, whatever they end up being.
So... I'm going to keep finding a way. Even if it's hard. I won't be quiet about my intentions... but I should know better than to take things in my own hands, when teamwork is the only reason I've come this far. I won't try to do everything on my own. And if I make a mistake, I'm going to get back up and keep trying.
I'd rather make mistakes than to have regrets for never even trying to do the right thing.
However don't charge ahead so quickly that these mistakes consume you or others. There is a power to strong emotions and a commitment to justice - however that same power can prove to be overwhelming, and cloud your judgment.
You have my support, along with a bit of advice to expand your worldview a bit. You'll see more clearly that way.
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heartablaze) wrote2020-09-09 04:45 pm
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Ah! Haku-san! [She is now slightly outta breath but its fine]
Y-you were with Yona-chan, weren't you? Is she okay??
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Mm, I was.
She's much stronger than most people anticipate - but even she was shaken up. Even still, I'm sure she'll be alright with time and some kindness from others.
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Yeah. I'm really worried about her, and I... didn't want to bother her, with everything that happened today. But you can see she's strong inside when you talk to her, you know?
...
Soo-won-san, I found out what happened at the vote. Why her name was chosen.
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[he looks curious]
Would you mind telling me?
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So... it changed my vote.
I was the one who voted for her.
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[god he hates the Realm but at least that doesn't show on his face]
And how do you feel about that?
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...Foolish. Guilty. If the vote had been different, I... could have killed her. But...
If this happens again, and we have to do this horrible trial a second time... then everybody needs to know.
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Mm. You're right. We'll let others know that they cannot vote for themselves, else it becomes something that puts someone else in danger.
Thank you for bringing this forward.
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I don't know her well, and I know I can get carried away. So I don't wanna make her feel worse just because I want to explain.
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... I can -
But I feel as though she would prefer to hear it from you. If you are apologetic, you should say so directly to the person you endangered.
That's what you owe to them, no?
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[Her fists clench.]
I just don't want to make her hurt any worse.
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Remind me -
You didn't intend to vote for Yona, correct? You did not spare even a moment to think 'I hope that Yona suffers this punishment in my stead'?
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Then as long as you bring that forward, you won't hurt her at all.
[he offers up a smile]
That girl is very capable, and very fair. You don't have to worry about harming her so long as you didn't actually intend to injure her. She'll be able to handle it.
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[An exhale, her fist pressing to her breastbone.]
Okay.
Thank you, Won-san. I'll try to find her.
I'm... going to tell a few others, as well. I know that a few people have already lost memories, but I don't want this to be forgotten if we have to watch someone else die.
And... [She hesitates.]
...What happened today, with Virid? That wasn't because of the vote. And she and I and our teams, none of us will be in danger.
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So she was randomly selected to participate? Or is it because Virid seemed to have something that he wanted to say to her....
While I don't know if that was the choice that would've inflicted the most pain - it is certainly one that wasn't painless.
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[Though she sounds like that's not something she entirely believes.]
If someone really, really wants their memories back, then... killing someone else is the quickest way to do that. But it hurts so many people, and we won't have as many here to help make things right...
My leader said there should be another way, Won-san. A slower way, but... we shouldn't have to try these kinds of things just because we're frightened.
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[he agrees easily enough]
We've all been placed in a difficult situation to begin with, where our memories have been held hostage and for those who want them more fiercely than others, they've been given a way to regain them - but at the expense of others.
Their friendly competition has become anything but.
So what will you do knowing this?
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Haku-san, my oldest brother told me that a person has to make up their mind in this world. That I have to stick to my decisions, whatever they end up being.
So... I'm going to keep finding a way. Even if it's hard. I won't be quiet about my intentions... but I should know better than to take things in my own hands, when teamwork is the only reason I've come this far. I won't try to do everything on my own. And if I make a mistake, I'm going to get back up and keep trying.
I'd rather make mistakes than to have regrets for never even trying to do the right thing.
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It's an admirable way to live.
However don't charge ahead so quickly that these mistakes consume you or others. There is a power to strong emotions and a commitment to justice - however that same power can prove to be overwhelming, and cloud your judgment.
You have my support, along with a bit of advice to expand your worldview a bit. You'll see more clearly that way.