They didn't get the chance. I was asked to fight them, before they could even become the Pillar. And when they told me their reasoning... I don't remember much of what happened, but I know I couldn't stand for it.
To let yourself die, even if you think it's the best option... it leaves behind everyone who ever loved and believed in you to have to deal with what's left from your choice. Instead of believing in the strength of the people you love to help you live whatever is left of your life to the absolute fullest... you believe in nothing but yourself, and your hurt destroys you.
That's exactly how Princess Emeraude was, in the end. I didn't want to see that repeated.
[Hikaru speaks of death and leaving loved ones behind. The more she speaks, the more an invisible weight settles around Rufus until he's inflamed. There's anger again, backed by growing resentment and a fresh layering of cynicism that wraps itself around a seed of potent grief.
[Seemingly nonreactive to her kind emotions, he responds coolly. No suspicion or anything of the sort accompanies his answer, suggesting that his unwillingness to speak doesn't stem from his personal feelings on the matter.]
[Reality is much harsher. The worlds are peppered with idealistic folk, yet changes are slow to come with numerous setbacks in abundance. Sometimes there aren't even changes. His cynicism peaks here.
In contrast, annoyance unfurls when he thinks about her opponent in the Test.]
But nothing is timeless. Even a stagnant world will deteriorate under the right circumstances.
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If a stagnant world truly will deteriorate, then... does it matter whether they die as they should or stretch it out for forever?
[The own twisting of anger in her heart shows just where her thoughts lie. But it's not her question to answer when she'd already made her choice clear.]
... For not involving others? I agree with wanting to keep that away. But I don't remember enough about their circumstance to say for sure, Rufus-san.
All I know is the existance if the suffering that those kind of choices can bring, no matter how strong or determined someone might be. Even if you know you will die... to bring an entire world with you, and to say it is to protect those you love... it seems cruel, to me.
To be selfish isn't bad in itself. You need to be able to fight for yourself and your own desires. But... there are better ways to grieve, or to fight for what you have left, than to turn to something so drastic.
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But you were able to.
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They didn't get the chance. I was asked to fight them, before they could even become the Pillar. And when they told me their reasoning... I don't remember much of what happened, but I know I couldn't stand for it.
To let yourself die, even if you think it's the best option... it leaves behind everyone who ever loved and believed in you to have to deal with what's left from your choice. Instead of believing in the strength of the people you love to help you live whatever is left of your life to the absolute fullest... you believe in nothing but yourself, and your hurt destroys you.
That's exactly how Princess Emeraude was, in the end. I didn't want to see that repeated.
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Outwardly, Rufus frowns.]
I see.
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...It's my turn, then, Rufus-san.
Would you tell me why what I just said angered you so much?
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[Seemingly nonreactive to her kind emotions, he responds coolly. No suspicion or anything of the sort accompanies his answer, suggesting that his unwillingness to speak doesn't stem from his personal feelings on the matter.]
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I can't take back my own feelings or choices. But... I don't want to ignore another's perspective again.
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[Reality is much harsher. The worlds are peppered with idealistic folk, yet changes are slow to come with numerous setbacks in abundance. Sometimes there aren't even changes. His cynicism peaks here.
In contrast, annoyance unfurls when he thinks about her opponent in the Test.]
But nothing is timeless. Even a stagnant world will deteriorate under the right circumstances.
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Are you speaking of my opponent's choice? To freeze a world along with themselves, instead of live alongside of it?
What would you have told them to do, Rufus-san, if you had been an opponent against them?
ganba, hikaru
[His answer is clipped and sharp. He's not one to order people around, but he has his opinions to share.]
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Do you think someone that is that desperate still deserves a chance to live?
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Would someone with this kind of view be looked upon badly in the Underworld?
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Is that a problem?
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Nope. It's just how you feel, right?
I'm just wanting to make sure I understand.
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Their attitude annoys me.
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If a stagnant world truly will deteriorate, then... does it matter whether they die as they should or stretch it out for forever?
[The own twisting of anger in her heart shows just where her thoughts lie. But it's not her question to answer when she'd already made her choice clear.]
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All I know is the existance if the suffering that those kind of choices can bring, no matter how strong or determined someone might be. Even if you know you will die... to bring an entire world with you, and to say it is to protect those you love... it seems cruel, to me.
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To be selfish isn't bad in itself. You need to be able to fight for yourself and your own desires. But... there are better ways to grieve, or to fight for what you have left, than to turn to something so drastic.
...
Your turn, then, Rufus-san.
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