[Wow the retcon in here. Wow he's gonna die regardless?? Red flags red flags.
She bites hard at her lip. Blood spills, but she spits it to the floor.]
No.
This isn't Earth. A lot of people are supposed to be dying. I'm supposed to be dying, Shuuya-kun.
If I can live, then so can you. And if I die... you can call me stupid for the rest of eternity, and I'll deserve every second of it. But I wanna do everything we can...
I'm not going to give up on finding how to fix this place, but... if I can find you out there, then I will! And if you don't want to come back, after all that...
[ Hikaru says fuck the universal rules of life and death. Kano would have been more inclined to agree with her if certain memories weren't yeeted, but he's making do with what he has.
Which is, gestures at execution. ]
Haha... You really are too much! You sure like chasing after the impossible, huh? Tell you what: if you can find me after I die, I'll follow.
[ He is hopeless and faithless but that just means he has nothing to lose. He lifts his hand too, pressing the side of his pinky against the barrier and letting it curl next to hers. ]
I promise. Let's see if you can find my true self, when I couldn't.
[It hurts, to keep seeing him smile like that. It hurts, to know she might never see anything else. But he's given her permission, despite everything she'd done...
...
She nods, her hands curling tighter, the taste of blood fresh and horrible in her mouth as she leans her weight into the barrier and keeps her face tucked down, so he doesn't have to watch her.
She won't say anything else. If her staying here near the barrier for even a few minutes longer can give him just a little more strength for tomorrow... maybe she can find the strength to watch it, despite the dread that settles down deep at his words.]
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You won't find me. When I'm dead, that's it— even if tomorrow goes the way I plan. Your stupidity's gotta have some limits, Hikaru.
You won't ever see me again.
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She bites hard at her lip. Blood spills, but she spits it to the floor.]
No.
This isn't Earth. A lot of people are supposed to be dying. I'm supposed to be dying, Shuuya-kun.
If I can live, then so can you. And if I die... you can call me stupid for the rest of eternity, and I'll deserve every second of it. But I wanna do everything we can...
I'm not going to give up on finding how to fix this place, but... if I can find you out there, then I will! And if you don't want to come back, after all that...
[A swallow, her voice cracking.]
I'll let you go.
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Which is, gestures at execution. ]
Haha... You really are too much! You sure like chasing after the impossible, huh? Tell you what: if you can find me after I die, I'll follow.
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She lifts her fist higher against the barrier, enough to lift her pinky, even though it shakes. Her gaze is firm.]
Promise?
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I promise. Let's see if you can find my true self, when I couldn't.
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...
She nods, her hands curling tighter, the taste of blood fresh and horrible in her mouth as she leans her weight into the barrier and keeps her face tucked down, so he doesn't have to watch her.
She won't say anything else. If her staying here near the barrier for even a few minutes longer can give him just a little more strength for tomorrow... maybe she can find the strength to watch it, despite the dread that settles down deep at his words.]