[He almost felt like his heart stopped, seeing the prone body on the ground and the familiar color of her hair- but rushing over, this is clearly not a dead body. He lets out a short sigh, relieved.]
What are you doing out here? [He squats down next to her.] It looks like you haven't slept for a while...what's going on?
[Mmm she can feel the Talk looming, though, and she stubbornly tries to straighten herself up with what little energy she has left.]
I-I'll get outta the grass, I promise! I was just, um.... just looking for somebody...
...
P-please don't tell me to go back to bed, Hansa-san, I... Claude already brought me back once and it took a really, really long time to get back outside...
[She takes the PHS back, staring down at the picture like maybe that'll get her back on her feet and looking faster.]
I don't know. He's mean, and he plays with words a lot. He doesn't ever wanna tell the truth, because he says nobody will ever wanna hear him be truthful, but...
I... think he really, truly hates himself, Hansa-san. It hurts, to see him smile and have it not be real at all.
He's hurting deep down, and he's angry, and I think he believes that is the only way he can be. He wants to drown in his own despair. It's...sad to see.
[He reaches out to grab her by the shoulder in case she wobbles again.]
I understand you want to help. But pushing yourself past the brink is not the way to go. You're doing a good thing. But do a good thing for yourself too, and get some rest. You can help him better with a sound mind instead of a tired one.
...Haha, it's okay. Sometimes the sun's like that. But a bed is where you need to be. You're just going to get earthworms in your hair if you stay out here. I'm sure you don't want that, hm?
Well, I like to do something quiet. If your brain is keeping you up with all your worries, no wonder you can't get good sleep. You then read a little, or try to think of something nice.
[She huffs, momentarily looking like she's about to burst into angry tears.]
I do sleep, Hansa-san. I just don't feel any better when I wake up... I go to sleep, and I stay asleep, and then I get up and I just feel like nothing happened...
It was just a little bit a... a couple days ago, like maybe I just slept funny, but I...
[hansa help did she forget how to sleep ):
Her fists curl into her lap as she tries to sit herself up.]
-- I don't care how tired I am... I just really, really want to find Nico-kun. Even if he doesn't want to talk to me or if he throws a stupid cactus at me, I don't care...
[She shakes her head, wiping her wrist at her eyes because sorry Hansa she is crying just a tiny bit. Small tears it's fine she's trying to hide it.
Her temperature is perfectly fine! Other than her raccoon eyes, she looks like she should be feeling just fine.]
I... I felt okay on that day I talked to everyone in the dining hall... Monday, I think? But that's... that's the last time I think I wasn't... um... tired...
[how many days ago was that? she can't even remember at this point.]
[Oh no. Hansa, admittedly feeling a little helpless, makes a decision - he reaches forward, pulling her into an embrace.]
Hey, hey. It's going to be okay. [He's rubbing her back, now, trying to think. If not illness, then what else has been causing people to feel tired? He shakes his head.] Tell me, Hikaru...do you know who you're bound to?
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[He almost felt like his heart stopped, seeing the prone body on the ground and the familiar color of her hair- but rushing over, this is clearly not a dead body. He lets out a short sigh, relieved.]
What are you doing out here? [He squats down next to her.] It looks like you haven't slept for a while...what's going on?
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[She shudders out an exhale, drawing her legs close to her. Everything aches... maybe if she just slept a little longer?]
Chiron-san looked at me this morning. 'M not sick or anything. Just tired...
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[A light joke, but his expression is serious.]
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[She cuts off with a yawn despite herself.]
I though maybe I just might be kind of hungry when I got really sleepy yesterday, but... I've eaten okay, and I keep sleeping...
[She wearily looks up. Okay, the sun is still there... she thinks??]
What... time is it?
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[A shake of the head.]
It's the afternoon. You can't stay out here.
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Sorry... I don't really know...
[Mmm she can feel the Talk looming, though, and she stubbornly tries to straighten herself up with what little energy she has left.]
I-I'll get outta the grass, I promise! I was just, um.... just looking for somebody...
...
P-please don't tell me to go back to bed, Hansa-san, I... Claude already brought me back once and it took a really, really long time to get back outside...
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[He stares at her for a long moment.]
Does this have anything to do with whoever you're bound to, Hikaru?
[Since he's been feeling tired, being away from the person he's been close to.]
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[wat
She just. Looks at her lap.]
I... I dunno. I just made somebody mad a couple days ago, and I want to make sure they're okay, but...
He keeps running away... I think it's 'cause he thinks I'm stupid.
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Hm? Who is calling you stupid? That's mean of them.
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Nico-kun. [who the fuck is that] It's ok, I... I think I know why, but he's... a lot sadder than he should be. He never smiles like he should...
I promised I'd be there for him, though, and I'm... I'm worried about him.
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Uh. [THOSE ARE NICE WORDS, BUT,,,] Sorry. Have to clarify...who is this Nico-kun?
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[How... how to resolve this when she doesn't use anything but that nickname...
After a groggy few moments, she pulls out her PHS, slowly scrolling through the profiles until she sees his picture, before holding it out for Hansa.]
Mn. That's Nico-kun. I haven't seen him since Monday...
[It's Shuuya Kano's profile.]
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[Oh.]
Of course he would be the one giving you this much grief... [SIGHS] He's a rather troubled kid, but I'm sure you've seen that for yourself.
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I don't know. He's mean, and he plays with words a lot. He doesn't ever wanna tell the truth, because he says nobody will ever wanna hear him be truthful, but...
I... think he really, truly hates himself, Hansa-san. It hurts, to see him smile and have it not be real at all.
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[He's not surprised one bit.]
He's hurting deep down, and he's angry, and I think he believes that is the only way he can be. He wants to drown in his own despair. It's...sad to see.
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[She wobbles a little, catching herself again as though she's drifting off to sleep mid-thought.]
...I just don't know what I can do.
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I understand you want to help. But pushing yourself past the brink is not the way to go. You're doing a good thing. But do a good thing for yourself too, and get some rest. You can help him better with a sound mind instead of a tired one.
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[though it's sincere, she sounds almost frustrated... what do you even do when you sleep and sleep and never feel like it helps?]
I'll try not to fall asleep in the grass, Hansa-san... I know that's kind of silly. It was just nice and warm out in the sun...
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[Come on Hikaru....please rest..........]
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That frustration just builds on her face, silencing her for a long moment.]
What do you do when, um... being in bed doesn't help?
Sleep is supposed to make you feel better, right...? Not worse?
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Listening to a lullaby is good, too.
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[She huffs, momentarily looking like she's about to burst into angry tears.]
I do sleep, Hansa-san. I just don't feel any better when I wake up... I go to sleep, and I stay asleep, and then I get up and I just feel like nothing happened...
It was just a little bit a... a couple days ago, like maybe I just slept funny, but I...
[hansa help did she forget how to sleep ):
Her fists curl into her lap as she tries to sit herself up.]
-- I don't care how tired I am... I just really, really want to find Nico-kun. Even if he doesn't want to talk to me or if he throws a stupid cactus at me, I don't care...
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[That's...different from worries keeping you awake, from the sounds of it.]
[He frowns.]
So not a single bit of sleep refreshes you? [He reaches forward to put a hand against her forehead, to feel temperature.] You're not sick, are you?
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Her temperature is perfectly fine! Other than her raccoon eyes, she looks like she should be feeling just fine.]
I... I felt okay on that day I talked to everyone in the dining hall... Monday, I think? But that's... that's the last time I think I wasn't... um... tired...
[how many days ago was that? she can't even remember at this point.]
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Hey, hey. It's going to be okay. [He's rubbing her back, now, trying to think. If not illness, then what else has been causing people to feel tired? He shakes his head.] Tell me, Hikaru...do you know who you're bound to?
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